So here I am at 3.35am writing a blog entry when I should be sleeping. Remember when it was possible to sleep all night and well into the morning? When the idea of getting up before noon seemed to be a bit of a laugh. I have several nights in a row when I sleep very badly, and then I just zonk out on another day to try and catch up at least a little bit of the lost time.
Once the brain cell engages I know that there is no point in staying in bed because I will just toss and turn and make things worse. So frequently I will get up and 'play' on the computer until I get tired enough to need to go back to bed. Right now I am tired, but the brain cell is buzzing.
Tonight I forgot to put the radio on quietly to help me sleep. Somehow having the radio buzzing away quietly in the background really helps me to sleep. I go through phases where this helps, and others when it doesn't and I need complete silence to drift off to sleep. It really is just a matter of finding what suits you at the time.
If I am very anxious about something I try to use visualisation techniques and Mindfulness to calm my mind down and allow the arms of Morpheus to close around me. By distracting the mind and taking it to a place and time when I was happy and felt good I can allow the whole of my body to relax more. A vital part of this is to concentrate on the breath; the cooler air coming in through the nostrils and then the slightly warmer air coming out. Mix that with the visualisation of a beautiful view from a hill on the North Devon coast and ... well I think I need to go back to bed now ...